The Confession of a Mommyrazzi

I used to love pictures eventhough I don't have professional skills in taking photos. Point and shoot that's how photogeeks called it. And when Digital Photography came out, I became obsess about it, I started with digicams and cameraphones and decided to buy my own DSLR.

I just love capturing every moment, every events and even small details. And thanks to the new world of digital photography, taking photo snaps nowadays was so easy. Capturing every little stuff because of neverending technology development is within our reach,
From camera fones to handy digital cameras, ipads, tablets and other gadgets that has a camera.

Oh, I love to snap pictures of my pets, my collections, the places I go to, the stuff I like or I bought and the food I eat. Then one day this cute little Man came into my life and everything has change a bit, he started to invade my camera, my phone, my ipad and my social networking accounts. Too bad I broke my dslr's lenses and Still planning to buy a new one, so I wasn't able to used it as of now. Good thing I have my digital cameras, my samsung galaxy s and my ipad. It was so easy to capture every moments and milestone of my Baby Boy Cisco.

Since his Dad is working more than 8 hours per day that he wasn't able to see our son's milestones, I'm thankful that Technology helps us to easily record every special detail of our little man.

Plus the fact that I don't live with my parents that made them misses their grandson; using my facebook account and uploading some shots of my baby makes my parents so happy on seeing my son's photo.. grow each day.

Some of my friends and relatives enjoys seeing my Son's pictures popping everyday on their fb screen but some are annoyed and I guess they're tired of it. Who cares! Sorry for that... And I think it isn't my problem anymore. There's a restriction, hide and unfriend button anyway. Ooops I'm not angry about it, I'm just stating facts.

I'm happy seeing my Son's developmental stage. Now I understand why some Mom are super OC (obsessive compulsive) just like what happened in me. May be they are so so proud or may be they want to connect to their relatives; whatever reason it is! Oh well. You've got an ally here. Momma...momma raaazzzi! 😜

My 3rd Trimester as Mommy Melai

On my third trimester, I’m starting to feel a bit bulky and getting comfortable isn’t hard but realizing that I won’t be pregnant for a long time made me feel better. I have these tiny stretch- marks, swollen ankles and I noticed yellowish milk on my breast. And I can’t forget the terrible feeling of having; Sleepless nights, shortness of breath and leg cramps. Monthly check-up turns to weekly check-up. Day by day I’m feeling a bit nervous but super excited. This was the time I’m started to feel fat and ugly. I gain weight, My faces changes a lot, and I have some dark spot in my body. It was sad but I have to go through this, some say it’s pretty normal to look ugly when you’re having a baby boy in your womb. And thinking that I won’t be pregnant for a long time made me feel a little better; I want to thank my loving husband for cheering me up when I’m feeling a little insecure. I also appreciate my family who’s always been there as I seize this nine months of pregnancy. On the bright side, my husband, I and our family are so excited and can’t wait for this cute little addition to our clan. This was the time when we started to buy stuff for our Baby Cisco. Seeing tiny clothes makes me day-dream how my baby will look like when he arrives on that special day. From newborn basics, nursery linens, bathing and grooming accessories, feeding and nursing essentials up to nursery furnishing. All I can say is… It was fun when you’re expecting.



I'm feeling bulky and bloated... OMG. I'm double chin... I gained 53lbs.



Shopping some prego clothes with my sissy


Having a good time with my husband and my sisters from our family outing.


Shopping for our Baby Cisco.

Baby Cisco's Stuff

My 2nd Trimester as Mommy Melai

On my second trimester, I’m starting to look pregnant and people beginning to notice my pregnancy. This week is a treat for a new hairstyle a new clothes to show up my new curve, being pregnant has a lot of changes physically yet still I want to look good. This was the time I enjoy and have fun being a soon to be mom. Some of the discomforts apparently gone and I feel better. Seeing my doctor monthly makes me aware of what’s happening inside me. This was also the time wherein we finally discover the gender of our baby. We’re so happy knowing that our first born is baby boy. We had lots of choice for the name. My husband and I finally pick a perfect name for our little angel. Baby Francisco Jace with the nickname “CISCO” or “JACE”.



Enjoying the temporary new me and I'm loving my new curve.







They are beginning to notice my pregnancy, they say this is the most fun. let's see... I'm havin some treats at the salon.



Ultra-sound for the gender.. obviously it's a baby Boy. yey! 100% baby boy.






Mommy and Daddy goes swimming.! Enjoying our time together as a soon to be parents.

Meant to be together

This day I married my best friend,
the one I laugh with as we share life's wondrous zest as we find new enjoyments and experience all that's best.
The one I live for because the world seems brighter as our happy times are better and our burdens feel much lighter.
The one I love with every fibre of my soul. We used to feel vaguely incomplete, now together we are whole.

I always had this dream; to be a bride of a perfect wedding, wearing an extraordinary dress, perfect cuisine, happy family, relatives and friends and all the memories that I will treasure for the rest of my life.
It’s been 8 years but I could still remember the day I met the love of my life as if it was just yesterday, those days on how we got to know each other, play, laugh, argue, cry, make-up, and love each other so dearly. Many people ask themselves, how do you know if you have found the right person? No one can provide an answer for that, the only thing that I can say is that you just know. When you meet the right person, everything just falls into place and it feels right. I like how destiny has a way of showing you that you can be wrong about not finding that special someone that you are meant to be for the rest of your life.

We have been together for 8 wonderful years and have been engaged for 4 years and the two of us cannot wait for the day that we finally become husband and wife having our own child so we can call ourselves a family; we had a lot of dreams and most of our dreams end up being together.

We all know that there’s no such thing as a perfect relationship, we also had to experience the ups and downs that each couple faces day by day. But it didn’t ruin our relationship in spite we became special to one another. No matter what we may be going through or what challenges we may be facing, he always reminded me that the challenges & trials going to make our relationship stronger and last forever.

And time flies, it was fast and it’s our big day that day we both dream long ago. It feels like yesterday and feels like as if we are dreaming, but today it’s true. one of our dreams has come true and another chapter of our lives will start to unfold. We both don’t know what the future will bring, all we know is whatever challenges come upon we can do well as long as we are together. The feelings is mutual so much happiness in our hearts. The union of two hearts a forever commitment and a covenant with our God.

Finally the long term engagement has ended... Another journey in our lives as newlyweds, we both understand that we are marrying the right person... for the Love of God is in our hearts, so when the time comes that our love for each other has fade, I and him knows that God will help us renew everything... we all know that Marriage is a Lifetime commitment not just with me and him but also with our creator Lord Jesus Christ. May God bless our Marriage and guide us, as we take another journey in our lives as a Husband and wife.

We thank God for making our dreams came true. We say a big thank you to every single person who have celebrated our special day with us thank you for supporting our relationship and eventually marriage, May God richly bless and reward you.
A massive thank you to our families, relatives and friends for their endless and immeasurable support, We look forward to an everlasting Bond and happiness.

My 1st Trimester as Mommy Melai

On my first trimester, People won’t notice that I am pregnant but I noticed some of the common signs of early pregnancy; nausea, tender nipples and breast, fatigue and frequent urination. In this week’s I start a healthy lifestyle right away. I stop drinking coffee and soft drinks. Due to nausea, I’m beginning to hate foods because whenever I eat something in just a minute I vomit it all, the reason why I lose a little weight in this stage of my pregnancy. On my first week my husband comes with me to seek prenatal care and check-up from an OB-GYNE and this was the time I started taking prenatal vitamins and supplements. I underwent Laboratory test and Trans-B ultrasound wherein I and my husband saw my Baby for the first time. He was a cute little fetus and we don’t know the gender yet.

Nausea & headache is a terrible one, then dizziness yet you want to look good and feel good. I'm losing my appetite. maybe one of the reason I'm skinnier than before; good thing I had prenatal vitamins, milk and healthy food..


I'm getting skinny but my breast is fuller than before,
I can't even wear my old undies.


Our little angel's first picture. In his 10th week. We don't know the gender yet.
but we are glad to know that the heartbeat is normal and the baby is healthy.

Soon-to-be-MOM

. So in-love with the precious life I'm carrying inside of me...
Going through a series of changes physically and emotionally,
there so much learning to take place
It's been 8 months since I stride in this exciting journey of pregnancy.
Mystery, sensuality, wonder and delight, I’m expecting! I should be.




Pregnancy isn’t all about nausea and medical test; it is also the time of excitement, anticipation and above all…. Joy. Prenatal diet, exercise regimen, plan the birth and trust my instinct, my body and my mom to guide me through the amazing miraculous process of pregnancy and childbirth.

My husband and I named our First Baby as Francisco Jace, having this little angel, our first baby and the fact that we’re from a long term engagement makes us more proud and excited. He is the living proof of the loved my husband and I shared

I don't have anything except myself, my families support, my nokia 3310 cell-phone my extraordinary confidence and my faith.

Year 2003 when I graduated college,I don't have anything except myself,
my families support, my nokia 3310 cell-phone my extraordinary confidence
and my faith. I can't forget the day when I've got my first job interview.
Q: where do you see yourself 5 years from now?
A: I see myself 5 years from now having my own small business.
Q: what type of business is it?
A: I see our country getting hook up in our evolving world of technology so I guess I will start an Internet Cafe. He laughs.. Then told me that "If you’re going to dream, it must be big or bigger" (he is being rude)it was the words comes in my mind... then I suddenly think that it’s me being rude telling that I want my own company while I am still applying for a job and I forgot I am talking to the boss.
But when I finally land a job, I start doing my thing for our company at the same time self-studying some basic techniques about computers, I am determined and I want to pursue my dream. *fierce huh?

As years past by.. Improving myself and contributing what I can to our office while helping out my family was my daily routine and goal. then, finally After 2 years of perspiration in my job and a little help from my relatives, I enter the Internet Café business, though I don’t have enough finances, Then found something that some internet café are losing. I believe that Internet café was not just for gaming or for fun, but it can also help our community. After trapping some ideas and a research from other internet café. I add some spice in my Icafe, services that community needs, e.g. printing services, research, computer repair etc. having a quite long journey as an Icafe owner, I encounter a lot of obstacle one is a conflict with my job. after almost five years of service.. I decided to leave my job and finally focus on my own. I used to be a top internet café in our area but as time flies, internet café turn out to be like a mushroom that scattered almost everywhere. competition, price war and everything, but I still stick into it. This is all I started and I am not going to quit. This was the time I remember one person asked me about my internet café. "what If internet café was turn out to be just like sari-sari store that scattered almost everywhere?". I just have the same thought before I started it. And the message I get from my boss suddenly come in my mind.
"If you’re going to dream, it must be big or bigger".
So I work hard each day to pursue something, something.. I cannot tell for now. Because I am still working and planning. As of now I still take pleasure managing my small internet café business while working for ‘something’ that I hope can benefit me, my lover and my family someday.

I just want to take it one step at a time to avoid confusion. Though I am a person who is contented enough but it doesn’t mean I don’t have a bigger dream; you can laugh and say I am not ambitious. But I just like a life that is simple and has a routine. In my life I just need a little bit of happiness and I will be satisfied.

When I graduated in college all I have was myself, my families support, a nokia 3310 cell-phone, my confident and faith.. Now I have my business, a few assets, a bank account and a little investment, my confident and faith and still my family is always there for me. I know I can do more. So I must keep on fighting and doing. It’s never too late to dream and set some goals. If I will fail I will.. but if I will win, I will. ;) Because in our life there’s no such thing as mistake only lessons learned.